21 Nov

As a (homeschooling) mother, every last decision about my children rests in my (and my husbands, but a lot more on me) lap.  My mind feels like a computer screen with 1,452 tabs open at all times.  Mommas, I know you can relate.  Jason always jokes when it is getting close to bed time:  “Time to start closing down those tabs otherwise you will never sleep.” 

Here’s a little glimpse of what is racing around in my mind 24/7:

Passing on our faith to the kids—most important job we have.

Being a “better” parent—that litany is too long for this post—but, suffice is to say, I’m grateful for God’s mercy to begin anew each day. 

Curriculum—every. single. subject!  Enough said.

Food—we adhere to a whole foods, organic (as much as possible), mainly grain and dairy-free diet.  This?  Is *not* out of choice, but necessity.  This, also?  Is a hell of a lot of work.  I am currently researching the best gut cleanses to help some issues going on with some of us.  So much conflicting research!

Healthcare, or Crapcare—whichever your prefer—having a kiddo with lots of health issues, we’ve been around the block a few dozen times.  In most cases, there are a lot of “experts” who really don’t know a darn thing.  If I got paid for every, “I just don’t know why….” we have heard from an “expert,” we’d be rich.  So, we tend to take a non-traditional approach to healthcare using nutrition supplements and chiropractic and kinesiology care to get at the root cause of issues instead of putting a band aid over the problem.   This is not perfect, but it is the best we’ve found.  This?  Can be costly and time consuming.

Also, academic challenges are going on with this same kiddo, things that are still too tender for me to type out for the whole world to read (because I have that big of a following, right? Ha!).  But, it has led us here, there, and nowhere trying to get him help only to be told over and over that our insurance won’t cover those services.  This week, more of these issues surfaced and gosh, I’m frustrated and sad for him—and me, because I just don’t think I can research one more thing.  But, of course I will, because obviously.  (If you could offer prayers for discernment for Jason and I, we’d appreciate it!)

Church ministry—this should come this low on the list because I *should* have my priorities ordered correctly.  It’s 50/50.  I’m doing my best to give my time and talent where I can, but also step back and say, “Enough.”

My friends and family and others I’m called to serve—I have a perpetual “should do” list running through my mind—meals to make, letters to write, phone calls to make.  Often, these things just don’t happen.  And, I kind of hate that.

Today is just one of those days.  After a cup of tea and a few handfuls of chocolate (no, I do not eat my feelings), I’ve decided next week we are taking a break from school.  I need to recharge and just…take! a! break! (and by that I may or may not mean drink lots of tea and eat lots of chocolate).  We’ll see.


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